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Monday, 13 March 2006

2 New Poems. Inspired by struggles of the inner kind...

Thoughts of Abandonment (My ode to the past I can't shake)

I'm my own worst enemy
Proven guilty
I try to fight it
But time and time again
You rear your ugly head
My voice within, tormented
I don't want to fight anymore
Wishing, hoping, praying
You'll fake a disappearance
Like you sometimes do
I've learned my lesson already
Why do you stick around?
I don't deserve this
Your death has been plotted
I wish you'd comply
I'd like to give you to somebody else
Someone who thrives on you
Someone who deserves this agony
I write this not because I'm sad
I write this so maybe...just maybe
You'll go away.

***
Joy (My ode to Brian)

I know our love is for real
I don't mean to doubt you, I never have
I've never been so happy
I wouldn't do anything to jeoperdize that
I smile, because I know, together
That we can conquer my demons.

Tuesday, 01 November 2005

love keeps on smiling

for we have proved it wrong

in my heart of hearts

i know that this is strong

i have no doubts

but i do have fears

fears of losing all that we are

fear of losing you

i need not fear, i whisper

for this is true

     you and me

      together

       love, now and forever

(c) megan n. mumma, oct 28th, 2005

a ray of light

a sign of hope

i've prayed for you

for so long

i didn't even know you

yet in a way i suppose i did

i smile more than i ever have

because of you

fate is destiny

and destiny is fate

never before have i seeked their existence

for now, i don't dare to change it

this smile will never leave my soul

for my soul, belongs with you

and you have delivered this smile

upon which i feel nothing but love

(c) megan n. mumma, oct 28th, 2005

your voice is everlasting

i hear it all the time

your everything i've longed for

and time has passed me by

i'm shedding all my past regrets

to make space for your love

all that you are

is all that i crave

i have more faith in you

than anything i've ever had

your smile is addicting

and your hands are my home

what we have is special

in every imaginable way

i smile just knowing...

your mine

(c) megan n. mumma, oct 28th, 2005

love

faith

hope

trust

spicy

laughter

smiles

hugs

kisses

warmth

safety

honesty

openness

future

destiny

fate

integrity

important

true

life

=you.

(c) megan n. mumma, oct 28th, 2005

i'll never forget, the first IM

it seems like it happened forever ago

i saved everything about you

locked it in my heart

and threw away the key

not knowing, you+me=?

my thinking wasn't clear

i had no intentions of love

the more i got to know you

the more i realized you were the one

never once did i admit it

until that day

the day i told you "i like you"

i wasn't an expert

but i knew what i felt

it was marvelous and true

xanga brought us together

weird yet amazing

fate constantly tells me

"i did this for you"

don't mess it up, my motto

i live just knowing

i waited to find you

and i found you

in perfect conditions

you+me=forever

silly but true

ever since i truly realized

everything about us was grand

i unlocked my heart

and let you in.

(c) megan n. mumma, oct 28th, 2005

Wednesday, 17 August 2005

Currently Listening
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By Something Corporate
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Restlessness and doubt

It's kind of depressing

The way everything flip flops

In corners of my mind

Dusty with hopelessness

Restless with sheer doubt

Somehow, I make it through

Only to find myself

Standing

In front of you.

(c) Megan N. Mumma, August 17, 2005.

~~~~~~~

A promise of Love

Am I disappointing?

To what you thought I'd be

Capriciously senseless

Hope, trust and faith in us

Suspicious of our future

Before it even began

Don't ever leave me

This isn't a threat

It's a promise

A promise of love

Trust.

Happiness

Combined

Confusion

Fights

and make up sex.

This is the best I've ever had.

(c) Megan N. Mumma, August 17, 2005.

Monday, 25 July 2005

Your demise

My walls are caving in

I'm numb to your existence

Yet I fear you more than most

Endless confusion

Thoughts of fancy hope

I didn't pay for this

I sigh for relief

Your disguise is disgusting

Your demise is useless

Flyaway.

(c) Megan N. Mumma, July 25, 2005.

Friday, 22 July 2005

The tears want out, but I won't let them

Brave was never my forte

Everything is weak

I won't lose myself in this

Jello arms begin to mold

The stumps I call legs...

Forever sinking into oblivion

I hold your hand

A prodigious sense of security

Mindless rambling

Endless confusion

You somehow make it all seem okay

Whatever your doing, don't stop

I'm no genius...but love is.

(c) Megan N. Mumma, July 22, 2005

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- Name: Megan
- Country: United States
- State: Pennsylvania
- Metro: Perry County
- Birthday: 12/18/1984
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 4/25/2005